Why Atheism is like Sucking Balls

If I had found atheism to provide the purpose I need to keep drawing breath, I would gladly have followed it. But all I see in it is nihilism. Without a god or an afterlife, there is no reason for taking any one option in life over another, because there ultimately is no consequence. Our choices are meaningless, we're just to mindlessly fuck and die. Any value system devised by humans (read: morality) from which individuals derive worth is arbitrary and a farce.